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Advanced Open Water Certification: Done!

July 27th, 2009 Posted in writing | 79 Comments »

underwater.jpgI got home on Friday at around 6. It was a major rush to pack all the gear for our Advanced Open Water Certification, feed the cats, drop off keys to my brother and head back out to the dive shop for a weight belt and additional weights. By the time we got on the road it was well past 8PM. We stopped by a Panera and bought sandwiches only to land in bumper to bumper traffic on Route 78! All kinds of construction and road delays. We sat in the car a bit grumpy when all of a sudden we noticed the moon was disappearing. We were witnessing a complete lunar eclipse and suddenly didn’t fee so bad about the traffic. We watched amazed as slowly the shadow of the earth reduced the large moon to a sliver and then it was gone. I sat on IM for a while texting some friends as we cursed traffic.

At nearly 11 we got to the hotel, Allentown Sheraton and checked in. We had gotten these great rates through Priceline ($50 a night) for a four star which was great and our check-in process went pretty smoothly. Our room was perfectly situated on the bottom floor right next to the exit which made lugging gear in and out fairly easy!

The following morning after breakfast we arrived at Dutch Springs bright and early to fill out release forms (AKA if you drown we don’t care forms) and get our tank fill tickets and such. Divers are sort of a motley bunch varying in age, gender, weight and appearance. It’s impossible to look at someone and say “diver.” What I like about the diving crowd is that they love to travel and so the conversation is always a highlight as tips and anecdotes are shared and exchanged. Divers are generally very friendly and eager to socialize. I have also found them to be cool and collected even bordering on laid back.

After unloading our equipment (and there was quite a lot) and laying it out on the blue tarp for setup we were met by Klaus, Ray and John, our instructors. Klaus was older, Swedish. His hair was peppered and he had American Indian tattoos on his back and arms. His clear blue eyes conveyed intelligence, warmth and an open sense of humor that was instantly disarming. His accent was great and yes he did say “Ya”! Ray was slight, her frame fragile. She couldn’t have weighed more than a hundred pounds. Her short black hair was dyed with blond streaks and she had all kinds of piercings including a stud in her tongue. She was of Asian descent and her skin was like caramel. She was wearing a bright blue dress and we could so tell she was gonna be the drill sergeant! John was our dive-master for the day and he instantly singled me out as clueless chick I guess but he couldn’t have been more wrong. “Here let me help you with that!” Was he flirting? I think so.

We instantly began to get a move on. Walked down the steep hill to wet our BCD’s in the quarry so we could start setting up our tanks. I was given four extra pounds by Ray and throughout the day another four as my buoyancy needed adjustment. Just to give you an idea of how heavy the gear is, the tank alone weighs 45 lbs. when filled. I was then carrying 16 lbs on a weight belt and another 8lbs in pockets. There there is a 7mm wetsuit with a 7mm jacket, 5mm hood, gloves and boots, plus the weight of the regulator. Then of course there are fins, mask and snorkel!  I equate this gear to what astronauts must feel upon entering earth gravity! Crushing!

If for some reason any part of this gear rubs you the wrong way, as rental gear is bound to, your diving experience will suffer. Immediately after entering the water for our Peak Performance Buoyancy dive I got a horrendous cramp on my right leg. I had to wait for that to subside but the stress of this gave me a totally strange pain in my upper left shoulder. To top things off my snorkel came loose and I didn’t have it on the surface which sucked since we were waiting for a good twenty minutes for the first group to finish before descending. This was not a good way to get started. We had to swim through a diamond reef watching our buoyancy with additional weight which I negotiated just fine. I lost a fin underwater during this dive and luckily Klaus caught it. It just came right off! I was able to put the fin back on and finish the dive. The whole dive was stressful and I went through quite a bit of air in 30 minutes, much more than I normally do.

To my surprise, someone had found my snorkel and put it on the dock. For the second dive I did some serious adjustment to my gear and while my leg still hurt I felt much better. Underwater navigation was a bitch. Our second dive involved navigating a perfect square with a buddy, ten kick cycles each way. My turn with the compass was good, I was able to focus and get us back to the platform while Rob watched the depth but when we reversed I had a major issue with depth and really became scared when I couldn’t find the valve on my BCD to let air out. I felt myself floating to the surface which was bad! This can be lethal. I was focusing so hard on the gauges (mind you rental equipment was off by 10′ at least!) that I lost track of direction. Compass navigation rarely ever comes into play but still, this was a failure on my part. I felt like that was a total fail and made note of what I did wrong.

I have to say this was the first time I had become completely disoriented underwater. The visibility was low and I lost my cool for a second and really didn’t know which way was up or down. I was glad I DID NOT panic and finally got my bearings but I need to really watch buoyancy much better in future. My biggest fear is to rise to the surface too quickly in an uncontrolled ascent!

We had lunch after our second dive and went over knowledge reviews. John and I discussed what had gone wrong and how to correct it. He was extremely positive and did manage to instill me with confidence. By the time we were done and dropped tanks off to be refilled it was past 2:30 PM. We made it to the hotel by 3PM where we took a nap for a bit. Some experts say that tiredness and fatigue are sub clinical DCS symptoms but I think lugging all that heavy stuff was primarily responsible. We did our safety stops and were properly hydrated but that is not to say that you can’t get bent in 10′ of water.

At around 6PM we grabbed dinner and headed back to the quarry to pick up our tanks for the night dive. We began setting up right away, attaching lights, testing equipment etc. The quarry was peaceful as the throng of divers were gone mostly. I had no problems during the night dive and enjoyed it immensely. All of my equipment was fine, my buoyancy was near perfect and it was just an amazing dive! Magical in fact. This dive reminded me why I got into this to begin with. We went over signals and got comfortable with the lights and darkness. The bubbles themselves came to life. I can only imagine how gorgeous a night dive along a reef must be!

The following day I didn’t waste any time suiting up. We got there and I was ready to go. Our wet suits didn’t dry very well in the bathtub which was unfortunate. I felt so grimy it wasn’t even funny. By 9AM we were back in the water for our deep dive.  During the descent I pinched an ear and got water trapped under the hood which was bad. At least I know what I should have done differently. The dive itself to 70′ went well and we did our drills underwater. It was funny to feel my reaction time slow down from the cold and the depth. Write my name backwards? What? The water was cold!  By the time we made it out my right ear was aching quite a bit. Great.

One more dive to go! The wreck reel was a fiasco. Rob tied the reel and swam out and before we knew it the thing was tangled up and he was sinking to the bottom. Fine manual dexterity goes out the window in the cold. Ray and I finally managed to get him untangled and get him back to the proper depth. His mask had almost completely flooded. I had no issue with the reel and quickly got this drill done. We went from a sunken school bus to a fire truck to the platform and back. This dive was pretty good and I had no issues. On the surface, however, my ear was aching bad. Luckily we had just completed our Advanced Open Water Certification and no more dives would follow.

I’m keeping close tabs on my ear to see if I’ll need a doctor. Hopefully I won’t. My body aches from lugging all that gear but it’s not that bad. I have a couple of bruises on my shoulder from carrying the tank and on my shin…but it’s all good. Got my cert! Woot!

Rambling, I suppose

July 22nd, 2009 Posted in writing | 36 Comments »

polaroid.jpgWhere has inspiration gone? I feel empty, devoid of it, as if it’s fled suddenly; evaporated into thin air. Emotionally I am all over the place. I am relieved that my grandmother is well, that the breast cancer didn’t spread; that ultimately it wasn’t genetic. I’ve been losing sleep, been gaming too much, or playing too many games, tossing and turning. Stressed deep down. I am unhappy with myself, feel that I could be doing more to better myself and yet, I don’t. I am just cruising by, not doing or creating anything extraordinary. I feel dull. Radiance of days past is missing today. Maybe it’s the weather, maybe it’s a mood.

I feel that people judge me solely on my sensuality, my ability to flirt, my self confidence and drive. They see only that which they choose to see; that which either pleases them or annoys them. Extremes. Very few bother with the in-betweens, the workings of my mind, the nuances of my soul. That’s fine I suppose, why open myself up for scrutiny? I can’t erase my nature, can’t hide it or otherwise stifle it. I need to dance naked in the moonlight like the pagans of old, revel in the feminine energy that lights up my spirit. I try to bind it, tie it, otherwise destroy it but I can’t. I can’t and I won’t stop being myself; it’s not worth it. I crave the freedom to feel, to be, to explore, to tread past the veil of convention.

When people want things from one another, they can turn a blind  eye to a myriad of problems. When the novelty wears off the wide-eyed hope becomes resentment. The past does catch up to the present and it makes me think long and hard about the future. I don’t want to be too harsh, too judgmental or too negative. I don’t want to sabotage myself or my relationships but my grasp on reality is firm and hope is nothing but a well crafted, well dressed lie. In short, just another fantasy.

What the hell am I talking about anyway? Just rambling I suppose. Truth vs. Desire? Desiring the truth? I’m still thinking about that. The thing about truth is that it’s not absolute as multiple truths can exist simultaneously confusing us further. I struggle at times with my desires as there are a great many of them that don’t necessarily match the truth. I crave emotional interaction, it moves me. Rivers feeding into an ocean; strands that split off and never return. Energy loss.

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And now for something completely different

A lot of people ask me why I game. Why do I play D&D or Role-play (RP) in World of Warcraft or waste my time with such meaningless things. I’ve been role-playing since I was 15, that is when my first boyfriend got me into playing D&D. It’s one of the more positive things that came out of that formative relationship. Yes, I discoverd D&D and sex all at once and perhaps it all fused together in my mind as highly “enjoyable”. Not entirely sure but I’ve never given up on either.

I’m an extremely visual person; a creative person down to the core. I can visualize so clearly I can almost feel it, taste it. Role-playing a character becomes a real experience somewhere in my mind and I can live as dangerously as I want, explore situations, environments and events, safely. It’s an escape that is also shared by people around the table, or in the case of online games, a community. It is in short a bit of wish fulfillment that allows me to exercise my creativity (believe me there is a lot of it) while escaping into a fantasy world of my making. I need this higher level interaction, it fuels me, inspires me and I find it extremely rewarding. Always have.

It’s a mental relief to transform into a stealthy assassin infiltrating a military base, a fearless barbarian shaman, a sweet-faced adolescent vampire or a sadistic blood elf warlock for a while. Daily life with it’s ins and outs is a grind and I seek escape perhaps more often than the next person. Role-playing is a bit like going on vacation from all that. In essence, the reward is the experience itself, the fantasy, the weaving of the tale. I can spend hours sketching characters and rendering them in 3D, fueling the fantasy with very real, tangible images.

Text RP also involves the ability to convey, through language, complex storytelling, mood, mannerisms and details. Keeping things fresh requires quite a bit of innovation and a refinement in my use of language and composition. In short this requires quite a bit of thinking. I’m mental so this aspect of RP is supremely satisfying for me as I love writing. Online RP is also extremely anonymous, allowing for even more detachment and freedom. It’s wonderful. Finally, RP has taught me quite a bit of conflict management and resolution.

I have D&D to thank for knowing the difference between a Bec de Corbin and a Lucern Hammer. How many of you know what a man catcher is? Well…don’t answer that!

Tear it all down

July 8th, 2009 Posted in Uncategorized | 41 Comments »

I need to go back to being anonymous, to having a site that no one knows about. I need utter and complete anonymity so I can say and do whatever I want. I feel slightly crazy and disheveled and I need a space that will allow me to dance naked again, jut let my hair down and let it all out. Fuck it. I am tired of censoring every word as I ponder how it will affect me professionally. Blah, who cares? I say smash it all down. Mabelyn.com has become stale; a creative rut and I no longer want it. There I said it! Time to tear it all down, word by word. Create something new. I need a new purpose. Took a while to build, will only take a minute to destroy. Change is inevitable!

July 6th, 2009 Posted in 3d Art | 5 Comments »

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Zhen is a sci-fi character whose inspiration comes partly from Heinlein’s Friday, Aeon Flux, Molly from Neuromancer and Leloo from the 5th Element. I wrote a brief description for her, below and then decided to take a stab at rendering her. Once the final image is complete I will reupload. I am still doing quite a bit of painting on this. I would like to add some spacecraft through the windows, work on her duster and assorted other details. I might rework her clothing and body type a bit more as well to better match the written brief.

Zhen’s heart-shaped face is sweet and innocent but her piercing husky-blue eyes convey an astute intellect as they coldly take in her surroundings. Her mouth is small and cherubic; her tea-rose-colored lips curving sensuously beneath a cute nose. While her carefree smile has the power to light up a room, more often than not her lips are twisted into a charming and slightly mischievous smirk. Her alabaster complexion is flawless save for a now-faded scar that travels along her left cheek. A bob of unnaturally flaming orange hair is cut to fine points along her well defined jaw line.

Her neck is long and well sculpted. She is nearly six feet tall and her limbs are long. She is not overly muscular but her movements convey a near cat-like grace and precision. Her build is boyish, her breasts shapely and small. Nipples peak under a short, cut-off white ribbed T-shirt. Her legs and hips are accentuated by light tan, skin tight pants of unusual material with two lines of thick, black stitching running down both legs. She wears utilitarian, well worn, mid calf black boots with rubber soles. A brown leather holster where a sheathed pistol is properly secured hangs beneath her well-defined hip bones. Another such weapon is holstered around her upper right thigh. A barely visible, well camouflaged line measuring roughly five inches can be seen upon closer inspection running horizontally and perfectly straight beneath her exposed belly button. It is almost imperceptible as it matches her skin tone almost perfectly. Her sinuously flat stomach is not without the hint of muscle underneath as it tapers to her small waist. A strange symbol of a star within a cog is tattooed above her right hip bone in a graphite, nearly luminescent pigment.

She wears a long, faded leather duster with a tall collar and silver buttons. The sleeves have been meticulously embroidered with a series of rising geometric patterns ending at the elbows. The craftsmanship of this coat is superb but it has seen better days. The bottom edges are frayed and the leather has been torn and repaired in several places.

Zhen is of Ukranian and Japanese heritage. She definitely looks more Eastern European taking after her father. She was raised in Tokyo or equivalent and has traveled extensively.

Inevitable

June 30th, 2009 Posted in Poetry | 38 Comments »

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Life unfolds
Luminescent scripture, revealing truths, testing defenses
I watch you twist and turn, weave tender tendrils of self destruction
Slow motion, the flow and ebb of time, if only you could seize,
Could STOP! the relentless pounding of the second hand
Crashing down on you, suffocating, stifling, stiffening limbs
Time is nigh when you must walk, chin high, moral and proud
I weep for you and for myself yet do not know why,
Eyes reflecting courage
Staring through this looking glass
All I can do is write my sorrows, my joys, a  poem to the wind
Let all my fanciful imaginings flee on black wings

Self Indulgence

June 13th, 2009 Posted in Photography | 37 Comments »

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In Lust with Kinetic Type Videos

June 1st, 2009 Posted in inspiration | 39 Comments »

This is like a graphic designer’s wet dream!

At Cecil’s

May 29th, 2009 Posted in Poetry | 44 Comments »

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Reflections, champaign colored hallucinations
Notes, bass, drum, a distorted synchopation
Candlelight, sparkling glass
Dazzling lips, legs crossed at the jazz club
Friday night at Cecil’s
Driving fast
Switch Back
“I love you.” Pulling you close, wanting
You feel so delicious and we look so good together
Mind wandering, humm a tune
Chardonay kisses, looking beautiful
Feeling the moment
Meaningful conversations with you
Under my skin
Wanting nothing and more
Wine please, another glass
Close my darkened eyes
Music, blissful music, notes
Record this memory
A man making love to his guitar
I feel alive
Lit up in the glow
Love me, why not?
Anything is possible
I want you and more…wine
More jazz
More evenings just like this one!
Quartet outside wearing fedoras
Remind me of you

Brilliant! Urinal Test App hits #1 Spot!

May 26th, 2009 Posted in Work, writing | 41 Comments »

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Urinal Test App

It’s strange how I’m always working on large exciting projects behind the scenes but I never really discuss them in my journal. I guess I do enjoy keeping my professional life out of my personal one but in this case I need to gush. I work for a web design company and we have been developing iPhone apps for a while now. We worked on Urinal Test as part of a marketing campaign for “The Man Book” in stores now and well, people love it so much they have spent a whole 9 years as of this morning playing it! It’s been downloaded over 600K times and it’s shot straight to the top of the app list! As the graphic designer of this wonderful little piece of pop culture, I think I get to pat myself in the back. If you don’t have it go download it, it’s great, silly fun!

Warlock and Doomguard: 3 Variations

May 24th, 2009 Posted in 3d Art | 427 Comments »

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Khajj and Doom Guard

Khajj and Doom Guard 3